Raising My Kids to Ignore the Hate

On November 4, 2015, in Family, by Chris Baccus


I’m a child of the 80s. It was the age of Aqua Net, Z Cavaricci, and Doc Martins — sometimes all on the same day. I wore polka dot dress shirts, crimped my hair, and wore eyeliner (even if it was just once at a nightclub.) Being a kid who was more interested in music and dance clubs, I didn’t exactly win over most of my peers in middle school and high school.

Being considered different in a suburb of Portland, long before it became the hipster paradise we all know it as today, I was called every a slanderous name used against gay men even though I wasn’t gay. Wearing a letterman jacket and a baseball hat was something I never did. I never wore jeans or baseball hat until the 1990s. My heroes weren’t athletes. Instead, my heroes were on MTV’s 120 Minutes or on a Bones Brigade VHS. I wore a lot of black and white and spent a lot of time listening to music and discovering obscure films.

Looking back there were key pivotal moments growing up that took me out of the mainstream. I was a kid that played football, basketball and baseball when kids did that in the neighborhood. Granted we also played a lot of Risk and Dungeons & Dragons too.


My best friend in 7th grade Steve had an older sister who exposed us to a cassette tape of Ministry’s “With Sympathy.” It was unlike anything I had ever heard before. It was 1983 and everything on the radio was from Michael Jackson, Lionel Richie, and Daryl Hall & John Oats. Ministry was early synth-pop new wave, before they became what we later called Industrial music. I wanted to know more of what I was missing. A whole new universe of music opened up. There was nothing-called “Alternative Music” back then. You simply had MTV that mostly played hair bands and Top 40 and the local radio that only played Top 40. The Cure, The Smiths, and Soft Cell were some early discoveries.

One day at another friend’s house we watched a film called Suburbia. It was about a roaming bunch of homeless punk rock kids who would get in fights and attend punk shows at night. It was an early intro into punk rock where I found about T.S.O.L., DRI, and The Vandals. I was skateboarding at the time and we all started emulating the kids in the films with their leather jackets and flannel shirts. I recall often tying my shirt around my waist and wearing Jimmy-Z chef-like hats, popping ollies and jumping curbs as we skated through downtown Gresham and Portland.

James, a tall lanky skateboarder who lived close to my house, had a dad that travelled Internationally and would bring home vinyl imports of Misfit albums for his son. I remember listening to Danzig screaming “Angel Fuck” in his Elvis like voice while hanging out at James’ house as we did axel grinds on a quarter pipe ramp in his driveway.

This combination of punk rock and early alternative music had a significant impact in how I dressed and how my attitude was forming. For a while it was all black and white though I would dress it up sometimes with a tie or so shoes that looking back were some really bad decisions.

Later my group of friends in high school would head to downtown Portland teenage dance clubs where we met girls and danced in front of mirrors, okay that last part was pretty stupid. We had a lot of hair and looked nothing like the popular kids at school, which brings me back to raising kids to ignore the hate.

Because I didn’t care about the cultural mores of most of my school, I did what I wanted and dressed, as I wanted. My friends and I all mocked others for being trendy because we wanted separation from the mundane and mainstream, even if we followed our own micro-trendy habits.

Our small circle stood out in the middle class mundaneness of Gresham, Oregon. We looked different. We did different things. We had no desire to be normal or as we saw it – boring. With that came a lot of self-discovery in finding out what art exists outside of the mainstream. All of that later developed into going to art house films, a love for obscure documentaries, listening to a ton of amazing music, and developing a love for fashion and style even if I am now too old to wear any of it.


I want my kids to be free to discover the unusual. Find things that are harder to find. Hear music and watch film that doesn’t sell well, but tells a better more interesting story. While I hope other kids have moved away from calling the individually minded kids at school names, I hope my boys will find their unique way around the world and explore what isn’t so obvious.

And you know what, being called a faggot or queer never bothered me. If that was the hate meant to hurt me, it never worked. I enjoyed being unique and still relish it today.

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All Things Must Pass, Except My Love for Music

On October 18, 2015, in Family, Featured, by Chris Baccus


Last Thursday night was pretty special. The original Los Angeles Sunset Avenue Tower Records location was brought back to life for one evening of music to celebrate the release of All Things Must Pass a new documentary from director Colin Hanks.

I remember going here in the late 80s and early 90s; though, I spent more time at Tower Records when they opened a location in downtown Birmingham, Michigan. Though, if I’m being honest the return of a major chain record store is a weird thing to celebrate. Places like Tower Records were great for getting anything common, but most of my time spent at record stores was done seeking bootleg concerts, hard to find imports, and used vinyl.


To bring us all back to the days pre-iTunes and digital everything, the event planners came with a few bins of vinyl you could browse through and put on a record player.  I heard a few people asking their friends if they had record players.  Most said no with only a couple people saying they still did. I have one at home and cheaper one in my office I listen to often. The physical experience of looking at records in a bin is so dramatically different than browsing iTunes.  It makes you feel as if something is lost.  That something is discovery.  Album covers are advertisements to catch our eyes and hopefully our ears.


Gibson was one of the many sponsors and had a few stations with rows of fabulous guitars. Unfortunately, no bass guitars were around so I played a couple like a bass.  The Les Paul guitars are just amazing. The sound is incredible and made me want to run out and buy one and start lessons, but I recently picked up my bass guitar and am getting reacquainted with it though that’s another story for another time.


There was a full stage out in the parking lot that eventually filled with Eagles of Death Metal who turned out to be far more tame than their name. They were great though and my only wish is that they were selling their latest record on vinyl at the event.  Oh well, I’ll to find it somewhere other than a temporary Tower Records.  You can see some more of the event since Eagles of Death Metal came with drones to film the show.


The film is what this was all about. The premier took place earlier that night which I did not attend, but I did have access to the film and watched it a couple weeks ago.  It’s definitely worth seeing especially if you remember the days of music stores instead of a few CDs sitting in a bin at Starbucks or some bins of vinyl at Whole Foods.

I didn’t realize Tower Records was family owned from its birth to its death — it’s not entirely dead as there are some stores Internationally.  I came into the film thinking why do I want to watch a movie about a mega store? I always went to the small record shops or Amoeba which still exists, and I still stop at, down the street from last Thursday’s event.  After watching the film, I came away with a respect I wasn’t expecting.  There’s an interesting story here and Tower Records was ran by some real characters.

Check it out. Whether you lived during the time of record stores or want to understand what life was like pre-iTunes and MP3 players.  It’s still a story about music, a real love of music.

For all things All Things Must Pass check out the website and trailer.

All Things Must Pass – Official Trailer from Company Name on Vimeo.

Disclaimer: I was invited to the private event and given access to the film for free with no compensation.  All thoughts and opinions are my own. 

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A Gen-X Parent’s Guide to Music for Your Kids

On December 11, 2014, in Family, by Chris Baccus


A musical education is an important part of parenting.  My father, knowingly or not, passed along some key moments in my musical life that exposed me to Cheap Trick, Fleetwood Mac, and The Rolling Stones.  Every time I hear “Go Your Own Way” I’m transported back to sitting in my parent’s family room recalling the first strums of Lindsey Buckingham’s guitar and the power of the chorus blaring from record needle and speakers. Music is part of my childhood and some of that experience came from what I heard from my parents.

The following list of 18 albums is what you need to breakthrough the latest Kidz Bop CD of vacuous pop hits.  Why 18? Because you have 18 years as a parent to influence you kids before they leave for college. To help you increase your children’s Music IQ, this list is here to help. It’s meant to be an education on 1980s and 1990s music.  Music I grew up with as a kid and as a college student. It is what I intend to expose to my kids through the years so they know great music.

Sure you’ll have your own thoughts of what is missing or why something made the list.  Please leave a comment as I’d love to see what others think and mostly what I may need to add to the list. So please leave your thoughts in the comments section and thank you for reading.


David Bowie “Young Americans”

“Right” is one of Bowie’s greatest musical contributions and this record combines 70s/80s Euro rock with American soul music.  Luther Vandross is even a backup singer.  I could listen to this over and over again with songs like “Fame”, “Fascination” and “Somebody Up There Likes Me” standing out with the oh so perfect “Right.”  Having kids who know all the songs on “Young Americans” will give your children a musical advantage to the other kids who may have heard “Let’s Dance” and that’s it.

Nirvana “In Utero”

This is possibly the most controversial choice from a band on this list.  Sure Nirvana belongs, but shouldn’t I have selected “Nevermind” over “In Utero”?  “Nevermind” is amazing; however “In Utero” has a solid mix of the commercially successful tracks and the hard-core punk roots found on the band’s debut “Bleach.” Some notable favorites to share with the kids are “Heart-Shaped Box”, “All Apologies”, and don’t miss “Milk It.” Your kids may not understand it at first and you may reconsider and think “Smells Like Teen Spirit” will get a better reception, but stay with it.  Your parenting will be rewarded when they one day appreciate your going with the final, masterful end to Nirvana as part of their musical education.  They’ll find out about “Nevermind” later and they’ll love it, but they might miss this great record if you don’t expose them to it early.

U2 “Joshua Tree”

Long before they were the band that auto-downloaded their new album to everyone’s iPod, U2 was an extremely talented band still trying to break into the U.S. charts in a big way.  This was their first huge American moneymaker.  It deserves your child’s attention for those times you want to relax and enjoy a moment together with “Bullet in the Sky” or “One Tree Hill.”

Frankie Goes to Hollywood “Welcome to the Pleasuredome”

How can I choose a double-LP featuring mystical animals having sex on a music list for parents?  Because it’s my list and of all the 1980s Euro alternative bands out there, Frankie Goes to Hollywood deserves to be part of any Gen-X perspective music education.  They were controversial, sang about safe sex long before it was acceptable, and there’s a lot of depth to this musical journey.  The long instrumental exploration that is “The World is My Oyster” begins a complex, musical adventure full of political commentary packaged in dance inspiring music from vocalists Holly Johnson and Paul Rutherford.
Van Halen “1984” 

You can’t raise musically educated children without them knowing about the mess that is Van Halen.  Some day they may learn about the constant lead singer curse that plagues this band.  Or they may want to learn electric guitar and then hear the name Eddie Van Halen, wondering who he is..? Therefore you must expose them to Van Halen. The final days of David Lee Roth where the success went insane and songs like “Jump” and “Panama” dominated early MTv with too many moments of David Lee Roth running around in spandex.  As ridiculous it all sounds the reality is this record is amazing.  And what better way to create intrigue in your music collection than a toddler smoking with angel wings?

The Police “Zenyatta Mondatta”

While any Police choice will do, “Zenyatta Mondatta” features one song that will capture most kids attention – “De, Do, Do Do, De, Da, Da, Da.” “Canary in a Coal Mine” and “Man in a Suitcase” also are songs you can sing-a-long with kids that have up beat, positive notes sure to make any car ride to school fun and musically rich.  Sure there’s “Don’t Stand So Close to Me” about a schoolgirl’s crush for her teach, but younger kids are unlikely to get that nuanced.  Zenyatta Mondatta is a great way to introduce your kids to Sting and The Police.

Lenny Kravitz “Mama Said”

Lenny Kravitz’s music is so derivative from many influences like Prince, Jimi Hendrix, Smoky Robinson, and Stevie Wonder.  “Mama Said” is an album that captures all these influences so well.  The songs are positive and mostly sing about love.  Plus what mother isn’t going to enjoy the kids singing “My Mama Said…”? It’s fun, creatively rich and enough funk and soul to be authentic but not pretentious.  Plus it’s good for kids to know about one of the coolest guys in rock from the past 30 years.

Red Hot Chili Peppers “Blood Sugar Sex Magik” 

This is Anthony Kiedis, Flea, Chad Smith and John Frusciante at their peak.  There is so much energy and sentimentality in this record to make for a significant experience in any child’s life.  What kid isn’t going to enjoy playing some sport with “Give It Away” or “Funky Monks” humming in his or her head? Think of the edge your kid will have with this as their soundtrack in life.

The Dead Kennedys “Give Me Convenience or Give Me Death”

Okay, so you might want to wait a long, long while before introducing The Dead Kennedys to your child.  “Too Drunk to Fuck” and “Kinky Sex Makes the World Go ‘Round” likely may end in Child Protective Services showing up at your door. However, we are in the iPod Age and you can simply remove some of the songs and still expose your child to one of the best punk bands ever. There is no one –no. one. – like Jello Biafra in music history.  This is by far his best lyrical masterpiece and there’s just too much here to not miss that you must find some time to expose your impressionable child to punk rock.  Your child will think you’re either nuts or a genius for including them in this musical journey.  If they think you’re nuts, that is an okay response.  So either way you’ve won parenting.

The Smiths “Louder Than Bombs”

“The Queen is Dead” is a more concise excellent example of The Smiths, but singing about a double-decker bus crashing into you and killing you probably isn’t the best image to imprint in one’s mind (yes, I know I just recommend The Dead Kennedy’s a second ago.  Please disregard that now.)  “Louder Than Bombs” is a more intellectual endeavor than the other Smiths efforts.  “Panic” and “Ask” are great sing along road trip songs the whole family can enjoy. Tracks like “Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want” might become your children’s new version of begging come time at the toy store, so this recommendation could backfire.  But Please, Please, Please stay with it as The Smiths are essential music for many a teenager moment that is bound to be thankful for “Heaven Knows I’m Miserable Now” even if that misery is misery your child feels you have brought on them.

Depeche Mode “Music for the Masses”

This is a rather mellow Depeche Mode record, yet that’s what makes it so powerful.  There is a beauty in songs like “Never Let Me Down Again” which brings us back up from a lesson learned, to carry on, to have faith in our best friend, even with their fault. Plus you can watch the music video featuring a BMW Isetta. Followed by tracks like the powerful “Strangelove”, “Music for the Masses” is great introduction to Depeche Mode that may lead to dancing in front of mirrors and spinning around like Dave Gahan.

Talking Heads “Stop Making Sense”

This is the only movie soundtrack to make this list.  It brings together several seminal Talking Heads hits into one album that captures so much of what is genius about David Byrne and the significance that is The Talking Heads in the early 1980s. This is also the only CBGB’s band on this list and how can one not include one of the main regulars from the famous NYC club? Well you can’t and “Stop Making Sense” showcases the band just as they were gaining significant momentum. This record documents the tour that was happening as the band was charting in the States.

Sonic Youth “Daydream Nation”

Often recognized as the most influential record from the 1980s that impacted music in the 1990s.  It is the transition from 1980s post punk to 1990s alternative rock.  It is what inspired bands like The Smashing Pumpkins and many others to come out of what defined Alternative music radio in the past two decades.  Their fifth album, “Daydream Nation,” got everyone’s attention.  “Teenage Riot” and “The Sprawl” are must listens when passing along one’s music experience to the next generation.  Sonic Youth is a band that feels timeless like they could be having hit singles over the past thirty years since so much of what we hear in the alternative music scene is influenced by how Sonic Youth approached their songs lyrically and musically.  Perhaps that influence will be heard when our kids are all grown up.  Knowing this album is key to understanding it all. It’s foundation. A sensory foundation that pleases even the most jaded music fan.

New Order “Low Life”

This is New Order’s transitional record that took them from being the band that used to be Joy Division to becoming New Order. Finally leaving the baggage that was Joy Division and making art that begins the night club gods that New Order served as in the 1980s dance scene.  Songs like “The Perfect Kiss” and “Love Vigilantes” are essential New Order and still remain on the top of my list for best songs from them. There are deeper cuts too like “This Time of Night” and “Sooner Than You Think” that uplift with their heavily synthesized sophistication.

The Cure “Head on the Door”

I discovered The Cure when videos like “Close to You” and “In Between Days” hit the MTv show “120 Minutes.”  This was the breakthrough album that got them international attention; though, it wasn’t even close to the crazy commercial success the had next with “Kiss Me, Kiss Me, Kiss Me.”  “Head on the Door” is fun, playful, yet music any depressed alternative kid can enjoy while feeling they are part of an exclusive club of people who found the music holy grail that isn’t on the radio.  At least, that’s how it felt in the early 80s when all of us in our black and white clothes felt when listening to the Aqua Net hair extravaganza that was and still is Robert Smith.  Your kids need to know The Cure and there is no better way to understand what this band brings than “Head on the Door.” It is simply brilliant.

R.E.M. “Document”

The best-known track is “It’s the End of the World as We Know It (and I Feel Fine)” but that isn’t why it made the list.  It’s here because this is R.E.M. at their peak.  “The One I Love” and “Finest Worksong” are classic R.E.M. that make you want to know more about the band.   This was the band’s first commercial success and started my love affair with their contribution to 80s alternative rock.  Spending some time reliving this album with your kids is something you can all enjoy, ending with who can sing all the words to “It’s the End of the World…”

Prince “Sign O’ the Times”

There are so many excellent choices from Prince’s catalog.  Sign O’ the Times is a perfect combination of funk, soul, rock and pop culminating in his best single ever “I Could Never Take the Place of Your Man.” One aspect of Prince that is often overlooked is how amazing he is as a guitarist.  Sign O’ the Times showcases his guitar work in so many of its tracks.  Even The Cure’s Robert Smith called the album amongst the best things of the eighties. He was right and your child should get to know why.

Michael Jackson “Thriller”

This was the last addition to the list.  I debated what uber mainstream album from the 80s or 90s is the most important for any child growing up in the 21st century to know. The obvious answer is “Thriller.”  For all of Michael Jackson’s faults, this record is the perfect pop example.  I recently found it in my vinyl collection and while big hits like “Beat It” and “Billie Jean” are always a good listen there are some deeper tracks that really stand out.  My favorites are “PYT: Pretty Young Thing” and the sentimental “Human Nature” both show the range this record embodies.  And in the end you can look up the “Thriller” video on YouTube to enjoy with your kids on Halloween.